R4 VLCD Day1 Lunch: Shrimp, lettuce, and mustard dressing
Today’s change: -1.6
Total R4 weight lost: -1.6
Stupid, stupid, stupid. That’s what I am. I’m not going to paint a rosy picture because I’m sure not feeling rosy right now. I *suspected* as much but to actually see it on the scale – I cried when I finally had the guts to weigh myself the morning of VLCD 1. I decided not to weigh myself before my load days because I didn’t want to face it until I had to.
And it’s my fault. There is no one else to blame. I am SUPPOSED to have control over what goes into mouth, but obviously I have forgotten that. Stupid, stupid, stupid! I’ve been too lazy with my food choices for weeks, and I also have not been weighing myself every day (or at all for that matter) like the good little OCD girl.
But I’m going to do what I always do when I face-plant, physically or metaphorically speaking. I’m going to pick myself up, brush myself off, and GET ON with the proper path. Set things right. Gain control. Accept the fact that I don’t have to eat all that crap, and that good food choices are better than bad ones (key word being CHOICES!). Time for some soul searching – have I actually fallen back on eating as a method of comforting myself? I think so. That’s a dangerous place to me for me. But WHY??? I have to have some boundries since I don’t have the kind of metabolism where I can shove whatever I want into my mouth.
Yes, I’m angry and upset with myself! I deserve it. But to give myself a little love at the same time: Christy, you had the presence of mind to KNOW what was going on before it got completely out of hand. Good job. Now put your big girl pants on and get to it!
My food: 1/2 apple mid-morning and mid-afternoon. I made the shrimp for my lunch in the morning – I weighed out 100 grams of shrimp (which turned out to be 5 shrimp) and halved them, since they are big mama-jamas. I seasoned them with some cajun seasoning and threw them into my standard Ziplock Zip-n-Steam bag, and nuked them for one minute. I had them on top of a mountain of lettuce with mustard dressing. For dinner I halved about a cup of cherry tomatoes and seasoned them (and 100 grams of tilapia) with about 1/2 tablespoon minced red onion, organic poultry seasoning (not ground up, whole herb), garlic powder, salt and pepper. This, like lunch, got thrown into a Zip-n-Steam bag for 2.5 minutes. It was good, but not as good as Texas State Fair Fried Chili Pie 
R4 VLCD Day 1 Lunch: Tilapia and Tomatoes
