Today’s Weight: ???? No scale
**Adjusted LIW: 156.*, Unadjusted LIW 154.*
Today’s change: +1
Ok, so I’m posting today when I said I wouldn’t. I’m in West Texas for my aunt’s services today, and woke up early even though I didn’t get in bed until late-ish. Pray that God is with my family today, especially with my aunt’s children and grandchildren.
My conversation with my holistic health practitioner on Friday was incredible – she is far more than just a practitioner – she is also a life coach. So we did not just talk about my hormonal problems, we talked about everything that is bothering me, and about my childhood, my personality traits and tendencies – tons of stuff.
Points she made to me that really struck home:
1. You know you’ve reached true forgiveness when you can speak of the offense and you do or feel no harm.
2. When someone hurts me they are not doing it intentionally or out of spite – they are bringing me a lesson that I’m supposed to learn.
She told me that the guy I was seeing was scared of commitment. She reinforced that what he did wasn’t about me. It was about his fear. She also told me that she sensed a lot of fear in me. I’d say that’s spot on. I have a fear of being alone the rest of my cussing life. I’m working hard on releasing that fear. I’m just going to let things be for a while. I’m going to work on changing the way that I think – and move towards positive thinking and positive expectations. More to come on that.
I told her I felt like I was a very intuitive person – this is fairly evident because with both guys I’ve dated this year I have had the foresight to know, even if I didn’t face it directly, that something was wrong. With TRHM, I just felt that he was hiding something (which he was). With my latest, I felt like there was no room for me in his life, even verbalized it, and there wasn’t. If I’m so intuitive – why why why don’t I listen to my intuition and trust my intuition better? Actually I eventually did that pretty well with TRHM but I waited longer to listen and trust it than I should have.
We talked about my desire for a relationship quite a bit – she told me to use visualization, which I know is powerful because visualization is one technique that helped me lose weight. She said I needed to shift my point of view. Instead of saying “I want a relationship”, I need to say “He’s on his way to me and this is how I want the relationship to feel….” (followed of course by how I want the relationship to feel). And I’m to do this every day. Easy-peasy. I can do that. She also recommended two books to me, which I’ve already ordered: When God Winks, and When God Winks on Love. According to Amazon I’ll have them tomorrow (Amazon rocks).
I’m going to continue to work with her. OH and she’s sending me some herbal remedies to help with my hormones. Thank God.
My meals: Sausage for breakfast. Leftover steak and broccoli salad for lunch. I was on the road last night and stopped for dinner at a mexican place and had chips and salsa, a taco, a chalupa, and an enchilada. It was gosh darn good.
Have a blessed Sunday xoxo