Today’s Weight: 169.7
Today’s change: -.1
Total R2 weight lost: 9.4
Body fat / Daily change: 29.8/ -.1
BMI / Daily change: 25.1/ -0
One thing I forgot to say yesterday – I’m in the 160’s! I’m happy about this – it’s been a long long while. I’m on the verge of being able to wear my size 12’s. I can’t quite get them on just yet, but my 14’s are starting to be loose with no muffin top whatsoever 🙂 I’m looking quite lean. I’ll post some pics soon.
For round 2 I’m determined not to obsess over the day-to-day weigh-ins. My R2 losses have been great so far but I KNOW they are going to slow. I also know that regardless of this the weight is going to continue to come off. I promise to myself to take each day’s weigh-in with a grain of salt – it’s not about how much you lose in one day but your total weight loss over a period time. Maybe I’ll be able to do this more easily with one round already under my belt.
Emotionally speaking I’m not as impatient or desperate as I was in Round 1. I was in a really bad spot with my self-image at that point. Now, I’m waaay better! The full impact of the choices we make can NEVER be dismissed, whether they are negative (the choices that caused me to gain the weight), or positive (the choices that allowed me to drop it). For me, taking control over what I KNEW I had to take control over, and taking the steps to change, and having the tenacity to do this has made a tremendous difference in the quality of my life. It may sound trivial, but really it’s not, The benefits were huge, and I’m still reaping them, and I’m not talking just physical changes. This is amazing, important stuff, people!
When I started Round 1 I was depressed and severly unhappy. It literally had been 5 years since I had been in a relationship (which was a good thing, by the way, the failure of my last relationship broke me, and it took a long time for me to heal). I was closed off emotionally and I never felt ready to date, even up to the time that I started dating TRHM. I’ve mentioned before – I tried to find all kinds of reasons to not like him. Obviously it didn’t work because we’re crazy in love with each other now.
What changed in me to allow me to open myself up to TRHM? My self-worth, that’s what. I feel beautiful, and loved, and deserving of that love. EVERYONE deserves this, and if you don’t have that feeling it needs to be at the top of your list to fix, my darlings.
TRHM knows about the protocol, knows how much I’ve lost, etc etc etc – and he keeps telling me that he doesn’t want me to lose weight. I’ve had to explain to him that this is not about him, it’s about me. It’s about finishing what I started. It’s about loving myself enough to finally see this through. Plus it’s about getting into my hot little asian-themed embroidered jeans again! But it sure is nice to know that he loves me for me. And I, in turn, love him for that.
I wanted to write about this today because this has not just been about losing weight. It has been about transformation. Words can’t express how my heart soars at the magnitude of this.
My meals: 1 whole apple for mid-morning snack. For lunch I had the remainder of my slow cooker chicken-less chicken soup, but it wasn’t chicken-less because I threw my chicken in it :-). I had another whole apple for my mid-afternoon snack. For dinner I tried something completely new and different. *GASP*. When I was at the grocery today I bought some new-to-me veggies – chard and daikon radish. Tonight I made the daikon radish.
I peeled it and diced the whole thing even though I thought that it was going to be too much for one meal. You know I like my leftovers. I placed in a single layer on a cookie sheet (ungreased) along with around 20 unpeeled whole cloves of garlic, some finely chopped fresh rosemary and some salt and pepper. This is what it looked like after I prepped it:
I preheated the oven to 450 degrees and baked it for about 40 minutes – until it was starting to look very toasty brown on the edges and the garlic cloves were completely mushy. After I pulled it out of the oven I separated the daikon from the garlic. I squeezed the garlic from about 5 of the garlic cloves onto the daikon and kind of mashed it all together (I put the rest of the garlic cloves in the fridge for another time).
I had my oven roasted daikon with baked tilapia. It was damn good! I’ve never had daikon before so I had no idea what it would taste like. It didn’t quite taste like potatoes, or turnips, or squash, but maybe a hybrid of all three. It smelled lightly radish-y while I was cutting it but it didn’t taste radish-y at all. It was delish. The likelihood that I’ll make this again is 100%. I’m excited to have a new P2 dish to add to my somewhat repetitious and limited P2 repertoire.
Have a wonderful day!