Day 2 Load

October 25, 2009

The injection this morning was alot easier, thank goodness.  I actually had to stick myself twice.  I have excess HCG mixed up so I loaded the SQ syringes w/200 @ 1 cc.  However, I’m starting out with a 150 dosage injected into my thigh.  So I have to squirt out a bit before doing the injection.  I did this because upping my dosage with the preloaded syringes will be easy, if I need to.  This morning I forgot to squirt some out, thus sticking myself twice.  Not so bad though, no sweat.

I also went to Ulta to get my oil free cosmetics.  I bought Lorac Oil Free Anti Aging Foundation (liquid) – it’s FABULOUS!  I tried several powder foundations and hated them all.  I also bought the Neutrogena Oil Free Moisturizer for Sensitive Skin.  The moisturizer has no sunscreen, but the foundation does.  For cleansing I bought Garnier Nutritioniste Nutri-Pure gel cleanser and microbead cream scrub, both oil free.

I’ve been debating back and forth on the shampoo.  I bought some organic shampoo and conditioner to use (Aubrey Organics) and am just going to put the conditioner on the ends of my hair and not the scalp.  If I get really freaky over it I’ll wear medical gloves LOL so that I don’t get it on my hands.  Honestly I just don’t get this part of the protocol.  How can hair conditioner or face cream inhibit your weight loss?  But, if I’m going to drink the koolaid I might as well drink all of the koolaid, so GULP GULP GULP down it goes!  Oil free everything it is.

Loading sucks.  HCG really makes you not want to eat.  This is encouraging but does not make the load days easy.  I thought I would enjoy the freedom to eat all the high fat food I could stand, but this is not the case.  I’m having to force myself.  Today I had pancakes and canadian bacon for breakfast.  I made the pancakes with sour cream and lots of butter, and cooked the canadian bacon in butter.  I could only eat two smallish pancakes.  For lunch I went to McD’s and got a double QP.  Blech.  Force feeding yourself is pretty gross.


Day 1 Load

October 24, 2009

Did my first injection this morning – I was terrified!  I was sweaty, my hands were shaking, and I had to just force myself to do it.  After all that anxiety – I barely felt it.  So that’s that!  The rest will be easier.  I have been loading, gorging, whatever you want to call it.  I don’t feel like eating though, and am having to absolutely force myself to do it.  Oh I also weighed myself this morning, I haven’t wanted to do that.  I almost cried – I’m at 204.  I have never been this heavy.  I gained more weight than I thought after I quit smoking.  Oh well.  I’m on the road to fixing it, strong, confident, and anticipating the up and coming losses.