R2 Cycling Break, Day 12: -2.1 TOM

Today’s Weight: 161
Today’s change: -2.1
Total R2 weight lost: 18.3
Body fat / Daily change: 26.8/ -0
BMI / Daily change: 23.6/ -0

Crazy TOM!!  I’m sure glad to be closer to 160.*.  I was a little down in the dumps yesterday, probably because of TOM and partly because of things that are going on.  If extreme mood swings were my goal of the day then I accomplished that and then some.  Just to remind myself:  Self, everything is going to be ok.  You are beautiful, you are strong,  you are worthy of the best.  You’re good enough, you’re smart enough, and gosh darn it people like you!  LOL I always did love me some Stuart Smalley.  Also Jack Handy, who was wise enough to say things like:  If God dwells inside us, like some people say, I sure hope He likes enchiladas, because that’s what He’s getting!”

Laughing ALWAYS makes me feel better 🙂

My meals:  2 chicken-apple sausages for breakfast.  Sashimi and cucumbers for lunch.  I pretty much went all out for dinner and cooked comfort food – but I did manage to cook P3 friendly comfort food.  I made grilled rack of lamb, grilled (GIANT) shrimp stuffed with jalapenos and wrapped in bacon, sauteed green beens with tomatoes, onion, and garlic, and devilled eggs.  Yes I gambled on the eggs, but I also only had one.  Dinner was spectacular.  And comforting.

Today I’m taking my awesome, handsome, incredibly smart teenage son to the movies, and I think we’ll go dine out somewhere.  Maybe take him for a steak.  I think he would like that.  He sleeps late on the weekends so I’ll ask him when he wakes up.

Today is going to be a beautiful day in San Antonio, I’m off to enjoy it.  Hugs!

R2 Cycling Break, Day 11: +2.1 TOM

Today’s Weight: 163.1
Today’s change: +2.1
Total R2 weight lost: 16.2
Body fat / Daily change: 26.8/ -0
BMI / Daily change: 23.6/ -0

God I love TOM. LOL.  Trying to figure out what I’m going to do with my Saturday….my housekeeper (I love the sound of that) is coming today. I’m considering regorganizing the kitchen cabinets while she works.  One of the great things about having her is she is doing to the stuff that I hate (mopping, scrubbing, dusting, etc) and I’m freed up to work on stuff that I’ve been ignoring for a while, like closets and cabinets.  Someday even the frightful garage 🙂

I know my gain is TOM.  My food intake was fine.  Also I reviewed my blog entries during P3 – I see a loss right when TOM starts, then I see a gain.   I’m not going to try to logic my way through the 2.1 gain, I’m just going to move forward.  And, that’s such a lie, I’m totally logic-ing my way through it.  That’s just the way my mind works.  But enough of that.

My meals:  2 chicken-apple sausages for breakfast.  Smokehouse smoked turkey for lunch with green beans.  For dinner I had a fabulous chopped steak with green beans and a squash medley at one of my absolute favorite restaurants (Gristmill) right by Gruene Hall. 

Speaking of – Nitty Gritty Dirt Band was incredible, and the opening act was equally impressive.  It was an all girl band called The Tricias – they have mad skills!  They don’t have an album yet but said they will soon, so be on the lookout.  They are mostly a bluegrass kind of band but they also mixed it up with some gospel – LOVED them. GIRL POWER!!  I would go see them again in a skinny minute.  And I shall 🙂

Happy Saturdaaaayyyyy!

R2 Cycling Break, Day 10: -1.4 TOM

Today’s Weight: 161
Today’s change: – 1.4
Total R2 weight lost: 18.3
Body fat / Daily change: 26.8/ -0
BMI / Daily change: 23.6/ -0

Yay!  Double yay because TOM is here.  That actually makes me happy for once because I’ll have another 4-5 days until my break ends – TOM should just about be gone by then and I wouldn’t expect any interference from it for P2.  YESSSS!  Right now I’m thinking two weeks of P2.  I’d like to lose another 10 pounds (for now).  That’s my goal, it remains to be seen if that will actually come about.

My meals:  Coffee with heavy cream for breakfast (nothing else).  Lunch was *alot* of smoked salmon over lettuce – no dressing.  Dinner was a small-ish sirloin steak (probably around 5-6 oz), a few spears of grilled asparagus, and a salad with blue cheese dressing. 

I did load up on the  B-6 yesterday because I felt like I was retaining water.  When I feel like this I’ll take 200 MG B-6 three times a day.  This absolutely works for water retention, and it helps with PMS.  Usually I don’t start taking it until TOM actually arrives because I just don’t make the connection (is that silly or what).  One thing HCG has been good for is making me more conscious of my cycle and the blog has enabled to go back and see exact dates etc.  Veerrrry handy stuff.

Headed out to Gruene Hall again tonight to see a band I’ve been wanting and trying to see for 20 years, and that is no exaggeration.  Every time I’ve had the possibility of seeing them in the past something interfered or came up.  Not tonight baby!  I have my tickets in my hot little hand and tonight I’ll be first in line to see Nitty Gritty Dirt Band.  I’m SO excited.  And as I’ve said before, I just love Gruene Hall, it’s a funky little place that reverberates with personality even when the music’s quiet.

Have a wonderful Friday my friends 🙂

R2 Cycling Break, Day 9: -.1

Today’s Weight: 162.4
Today’s change: – .1
Total R2 weight lost: 16.9
Body fat / Daily change: 26.8/ -0
BMI / Daily change: 23.6/ -0

Well well well.  I’m so incredibly busy and stressed out at work.  That is one of the reasons that my postings have been so short for a while.  I used to work on posts during my spare time at work, and sometimes I had ALOT of spare time.  Lately, not so much.  I’m wishing for quieter, calmer times.  Beam me up Scotty.

My personal life is a little topsy-turvy too.  After not being in a relationship for so long – I get into one with a man who tells me how beautiful I am, who adores me, who spends money on me, and now I spend most of my time pissed off because of what tastes, smells, and feels like control related behavior from him.   I’ve spent alot of time  in the last few weeks asking myself  – Girl, what is WRONG with you????  This man is crazy about you!    But you know what?  If there’s one thing I’ve learned from past relationships it’s that I should have listened to my gut instinct and heeded those warning signs.  In the past I just ignored them or made excuses.  The specific details of what I’m talking about matter, of course, but it’s also about a visceral feeling of what’s what, and what’s right, and what’s wrong.  Anyone that knows me, knows quite well, that any attempt to control me is….shall we say….foolish.  I’m an Aries.  Which sucks doubly because I’m hard-headed AND I’m ruled by passion.   Much contemplating going on right now.  Much to figure out.  Such is life.  Everything will be all right.

All this contemplation started a couple of weeks ago, even before my scheduled photo shoot that I wrote about some time back.  I was so beside myself over what was going on that I cancelled the shoot – I was just thinking that it would be really stupid of me to hand over to someone such a personal gift, a very private piece of my myself, knowing things were a little shaky.  I’ll get this all figured out eventually.  It’s really not a matter of deciding whether it’s acceptable or not, I already know the answer to that – it’s a matter of deciding whether I have the patience and willingness and time to work through these issues.   My tolerance is low.  I don’t want to say I’m bitter – but I’m sure skeptical.  Can’t help it.  Experience has drawn me that way.  And in my opinion that’s a healthy place to be, especially when you look at the patterns of my past relationships.

Wow, do I come across as a bitch??  And maybe the bigger question is do I really care if I do? 

Maybe I’ve been quiet-ish in my posts for the last few weeks because I felt like I shouldn’t or couldn’t talk about what I *really* wanted and needed to talk about.  I think this post just about sums it all up 🙂  Thank God it’s out.  I feel better now.

My meals today:  A bit of leftover steak for breakfast.  Lunch was broccoli, cabbage, and an 8 oz ribeye.  Dinner was sashimi and cucumber.

R2 Cycling Break, Day 8: -0

Today’s Weight: 162.5
Today’s change: -0
Total R2 weight lost: 16.8
Body fat / Daily change: 26.8/ -0
BMI / Daily change: 23.6/ -0

Wow, maybe I’m stabilizing here.   Which would not be a tragedy since I’m going back on P2 in a few short days.  But I sure liked the sound of 160.* better than 162.5.  I guess I’ll get over that 🙂

I’m not giving up totally on 160.*.  Today I’m going to be a little more strict with the low-carb and cut out all dairy.   Oh and the breakfast sausages.    I could try another steak day tomorrow…just a thought…

My meals:  Organic chicken-apple sausages.  Lunch was grilled chicken with mushrooms, poblano, serrano, onions, cheese, and avocado, along with a salad with blue cheese dressing.  Dinner was chili topped with a bit of cheese and sour cream.

It’s hump day, yay!  TGIHD! 🙂

R2 Cycling Break, Day 7: -0

Today’s Weight: 162.5
Today’s change: -0
Total R2 weight lost: 16.8
Body fat / Daily change: 26.8/ -0
BMI / Daily change: 23.6/ -0

For real???? WTF?  I did my steak day.  I fasted all day, didn’t even put cream in my coffee, had over a gallon of water and tons of hot tea, and had a steak at 5:30.  I have to say this is the first time a steak day didn’t work for me.  Dammit!  Just to note my last TOM started 1/29 so it’s coming up on that time again. *SIGH*.  Ironically yesterday’s steak day was a bit easier than the others I’ve done.  I was still hungry, I was still grouchy, but I wasn’t freaking famished.  I even had to go to the pharmacy right after work and was ok with that. 

Oh well.  Today’s another day.  High protein day that is.

R2 Cycling Break, Day 6: +.5

Today’s Weight: 162.5
Today’s change: +.5
Total R2 weight lost: 16.8
Body fat / Daily change: 26.8/ -0
BMI / Daily change: 23.6/ -0

Steak day it is.  I HATE STEAK DAY!!!!!  Oh well, at least it’s usually effective.  And I’m grateful for that.

My meals yesterday:  chicken-feta-spinach sausages for breakfast.  Guacamole salad with pico de gallo for lunch.  About 1/2 cup homemade chili in the afternoon (no beans).  For dinner I went with TRHM and his daughter to celebrate her birthday – she chose Red Lobster.  I had crab legs, shrimp scampi,  lobster, and broccoli.  And a ceaser salad with no croutons.

Believe it or not I’m about ready for this break to be over.  But I’m doing one more week anyway – TRHM’s birthday is this coming weekend and of course we have plans to dine out AND I’m cooking a major birthday meal (and cake) for him.  So about one week from today I’ll be back on P2.  I want to  be somewhere in the 160.* range when I start again.

Still SO looking forward to the 150’s, as well as my poem to celebrate the 150’s 🙂

Cheers!

R2, Cycling Break, Day 5: +0

Today’s Weight: 162
Today’s change: No change
Total R2 weight lost: 17.3
Body fat / Daily change: 26.8/ -0
BMI / Daily change: 23.6/ -0

Drats!  Was hoping to drop a bit.  If I haven’t dropped by my weigh in tomorrow, then tomorrow will be a steak day.  I contemplated doing one today but they are impossible for me to do on the weekend.

My meals:  Chicken-feta-spinach sausages for breakfast.  About 7 Aidels chicken-turkey meatballs for lunch with some lettuce.  Huge steak for dinner with a salad and steamed broccoli.  And then there was the vodka….that’s probably the culprit for no loss today 🙂

R2, Cycling Break, Day 4: +1.8

Today’s Weight: 162
Today’s change: +1.8
Total R2 weight lost: 17.3
Body fat / Daily change: 26.8/ -0
BMI / Daily change: 23.6/ -0

LOL lost a little ground again today – it’s fine.  I don’t get freaked out by it on P3 because I know I can take it off in just a couple of days as long as I’m strict with P3!  The gain resulted from indulging a bit yesterday.  Even after I said I wasn’t going to, I did.  Oh, and I had eggs, which I know cause me to gain (THAT makes me sad because I love eggs – I just can’t have them very often).

My meals:  Eggs for breakfast, which I purchased from the vendor at work because I gave my breakfast sausages to my son.  Lunch was the bacon cook-off – I had a variety of stuff:  some of my prize winning bacon jam with crostini, quail and jalapeno wrapped in bacon and grilled, devilled eggs (yes, more eggs, what was I thinking).  Literally ONE potato chip with bacon dip.  Literally ONE bite of bacon ice cream.  There was lots of stuff I wanted that I stayed away from:  Chicken-fried bacon.  Bacon chocolate.  Fried fish (at a bacon cookoff??? but the fish was for Lent).  In the afternoon I had one tiny slice of my jalapeno carrot cake.  Dinner was a hamburger patty.  And two Godiva chocolates.  I jumped in the deep end, did I not????? 

Today I will be back on track.  Enjoy your Saturday, I’m off to do the same!

R2, Cycling Break, Day 3: -.8

Today’s Weight: 160.2
Today’s change: -.8
Total R2 weight lost: 19.1
Body fat / Daily change: 26.8/ -0
BMI / Daily change: 23.6/ -.2

So I forgot to write about my belly dancing class yesterday – it’s SO much fun!  There are all ages and shapes of women in the class and it’s all about  great music, beautiful graceful movement, and yes, shaking your booty in booty-licious kind of way.  Love it.  I’ll be going at least twice a week and am considering three times a week.  My next class is Saturday.  I also ordered a beginner’s instructional DVD so I can work on technique outside of class.  Yay!

I’m also really loving my cycling break – after almost a month of P2 I was getting quite bored with the food and was craving all kinds of stuff.  So I think it was really the right decision for me.  I’ll take my two weeks of P3 and then my mind will be back in the game for a couple more weeks of P2.  Hopefully my results will be good as well as my mind set 🙂

My meals today:  chicken-apple sausage for breakfast.  Grilled tuna steak for lunch with tomato basil soup and sauteed eggplant.  For dinner I had three Aidel’s chicken-turkey meatballs and the toppings off of two pieces of pizza (cheese and italian sausage).  I had a hodpodge dinner because I was cooking for work – today is our annual bacon cookoff.

For the cookoff I made:  Bac-ushi, which is a cross between a BLT and a sushi roll.  It has bacon, rice, nori, avocado, cucumber, tomatoes, and wasabi mayo in it.  My second dish is Chipotle Bacon Jam, which I am going to serve warm with a bit of cream cheese and homemade crostini.  AND I had to make a cake for a co-worker’s birthday (there was ALOT of cooking going on last night!).  I made a jalapeno carrot cake with margarita frosting mmmmmm.  I will be good today and stick to P3.  No sugar, no starches.  No sugar, no starches.  No sugar, no starches.

😉